Change

I recently had the overwhelming need to change my space. It's something that builds up and then it hits me that I need to change something. There have been times that it was bigger like leave my husband and at one point is was leave everything and move to another state. I am always thankful when its just a hair cut or moving furniture that can alleviate my impulses.

My apartment is under 500 sq feet. I use to have one that was more than double and it was bigger than the house I was raised in (the same one I return to now). I lived there for a couple of years and always felt it was too big and a waste. I've never been good at finding the middle so I think I went a little too far in the cozy direction this time.

I found a big piece of cool fabric at the "boutique" for $5 bucks and it has red in it. A color I've never used before. Most of my palette is neutral and my color of choice is blue. I am also moving my desk. I originally put it up against a wall and have never used it. In order to make the room move I had to take the feet off the sofa and stuff in a space it doesn't fit. But now everything focuses on the windows and trees. I can actually sit at my desk and even use it for a table to have a meal. Eating on a dinner tray that throws you drink across the room when you try to cut your food is not cool. I am still trying to get all the stuff organized again but I am happy about the change. The state of organized is essential when you have no space but I still choose it to having too much space.

I call my apartment the treehouse because I am over 60 ft up and my views are of the tops of trees. Squirrels run off the top of my deck and jump into the trees - I'm jealous of course.

The only negative to my space is Ashtray Rose. You can tell by the name that my biggest concern involves her smoking and if that isn't bad enough she has obviously had her sense of smell damaged and puts on way too much perfume. She has a little dog and I know it will die from lung cancer - legal animal abuse. I spend so much $ on air filters, purifiers and incenses and there are other things - the least of which is the smell and most of which is she could burn my home down. I need one of those robe ladders or at maybe a trampoline. I guess her moving would be the one change I would love the most.

I am going to go looking for some red leaves or berries to accent my livingroom. I love fall - winter, not so much. I'll just enjoy it whilst it lasts.

Here's to change.