This year they decided to replace the carpet in the livingroom and the kitchen/bathroom floors for their gift to each other. It's funny that my mom and daddy have the smallest, oldest house in our family and it is the place that family & friends collect. People drive by and see the cars and stop by to say hello and many times we end up sitting on the floor so we can all fit. The floors go through a lot in that little house so it was a good present to us all.
My ex was considerate enough to divorce me on my parents anniversary so it seems to come up in my mind as a milestone for me too. He was in a hurry to marry his girlfriend and probably didn't even remember but he was obviously a smuck anyway. I am thankful to be divorced and I always feel like celebrating on their anniversary too.
I recently told Page that I was married before she was born and she was amazed and seemed a little horrified. She explained to me how she hopes her mom and dad never get divorced because she wants to be with both of them everyday, forever. I agreed and told her how I think her mom and dad will make it and I really do.
There are times I don't remember what it was like when I was married and admittedly I usually feel reminded when something is difficult with my relationship. Its like my brain only remembers being lonely and how hard it can be. I think back on my ex and he is a complete stranger to me. Since we grew up together it seems like that wouldn't be - it is and I would like to keep it that way.
I know marriage is not always like that and there were good times - many, for many years and nothing is promised. I look at how different my world is now and I'm grateful. I have my freedom to be me and appreciate being on my own. An added bonus is when I see love in my boyfriends eyes.
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